October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month and I remember being surprised at first how many women close to me would lose a child after a few short weeks or months. This scattered photo, from the moment I saw it in-camera— a blurry, gray scene of birds startled out of pines by our car— looked like grief over loss to me. Confusing, lonely, unsettling. Your plans and thoughts day-to-day have been forever changed yet the world keeps rushing by. The love between mamas and babies starts early and man is it strong! It doesn’t just end when a life does. If you have been asked to walk this road of loss, if you cry on a would-be birthday or a random sunny Wednesday, or lose sleep over if you’ve cried ‘enough’, remember God sees you, Mama. He binds up the brokenhearted. He has all of our babies in His hands. Praying you’re surrounded by friends who if you choose to share it, celebrate the life of your baby, however short, and nudge you closer to Jesus. Praying His love gives you strength and fills the empty spaces.
This photo may seem an odd choice for this verse, but every year I look forward to apple picking and to picking up a peck of windfalls for sauce. Those apples, tons of them, littering the ground under the trees usually just go to waste because they’re imperfect. Bruised, wormy, underripe, overripe, rotting. But God is the hand reaching out in this photo. He loved us, sought us, imperfect fruit though we are, and in Christ we are made something new. :) Happy Fall, sisters.
I thank my God every time I remember you… being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. Philippians 1:6
So in Christ Jesus you are all children of God through faith, for all of you who were baptized in to Christ have clothed yourselves with Christ. There is neither Jew nor Gentile, neither slave not free, nor is there male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus. Galatians 3:26-28